This morning after you left, I remember trudging across the porch, tapping my dog lightly on her head, stepping into the house and shutting the front door gently. I don’t remember going up the stairs, entering my room and locking myself away from the world. Next thing I knew, I was pulling the curtains shut, careful to keep the tiniest ray of light from the morning sun out, making sure life couldn’t touch me, see me, or even smell me. I climbed into bed, curled up in a ball, wrapped the warm sheets tightly around me. There, in total darkness at 12 o’ clock in the afternoon, time stopped. I froze. I trembled. And I waited for life to find me again.
I am Natalie kay-es-el. Which is simply Natalie KSL i.e. my name.
Like everyone else, I’m discovering who I am. Along the way, I fall into well-frequented traps of pretentiousness, contradiction, confusion, drunkedness, dog-chase-tail syndrome and plain fucked up-ness. It’s an endless journey, but, ultimately, one that is pretty kick-ass I hope.
If you want to find out more, check out my new About Me page, which hopefully gives you better insight into who I am and what this blog is all about :)
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